Your life

You make commitments that you’re certain will be easy to keep.  You expect commitments made to you to be kept.  They often aren’t.  Promises fall by the way side.  You long for companionship and a family of your own.  Life has not taken the path you wanted it to. 

You find yourself going in circles.  Occasionally taking a step sideways, but never really forward.  Looking to other people to make you happy only brings more disappointment because you haven’t accepted the fact that ultimately your happiness depends on you.  You try walking in the footsteps of  another to help you through this dark time.  But what is solid ground for one may be quicksand for you.  You must find your own path.  Make the tough choices.  Prolonging the inevitable won’t make any decision easier.

Instead, you hesitate.  Procrastinate.  Stagnate.

Now you’ve placed your trust in one tied to another.  Casting veils over your own doubt.  Again putting your happiness at the whim of someone else.  Where will this go?  Is there really a light at the end of this tunnel?  Or is that simply a reflection of something on a track to nowhere?

Making plans for the future nearly becomes an effort in futility.  There are connections to your past that have not yet been severed.  How can you make any meaningful plans for your future when those conditions still exist?  Would any plans at this point be fair to children or a new love? 

Would these plans be fair to you? 

Floundering about in the shadows you’ve created is a difficult task.  The maze that has become your life will circle in on itself and collapse, trapping you in a cell in the center with no clear entry and exit points, if you don’t take control now!  Stop setting yourself up for failure!  Stop allowing YOUR life to go on around you! Be a participant!!

This is your moment!  This is your time!  Aren’t you ready?

P.S.  To my Sista-in-the-struggle, “T”:  HAPPY B’DAY! LOVE YA BOO!